Believing in the Lord's timing...no matter how hard.

     

Oh How true this is!!!!! As many of you that are reading this know I am dying to be able to put in my papers to serve an LDS Mission! If you had to put it on my list of priorities it's secondary only to finishing my Bachelor's degree. These two things have been my dream goals for a long time. And for the first time in the few months of this Semester I realized how close i was getting to the ability to start my papers to officially go on my Mission. it was the most exciting feeling in the world! Here is where my plot twist comes in...

  School is trying to hold me for a whole semester more. So instead of graduating this spring it will be in a year from now. A WHOLE YEAR!!!! 

I don't know if anyone else has had this complication but i can't tell you how angry I am at the school they have no right I have done all my schooling I can...

Then a thought comes to me..." This might not just be for you."
 I sit perplexed by this  thought...let me tell you why.......

someone once told me that a mission is not for you. It's for the Lord. It's your time in the Lord's hands. What he does with you in that time is for him to know. But for all you know he knows that you need to be held back from fulfilling any farther in the process. Whether it be for a personal reason OR a teaching lesson. Now I am not saying he is trying to teach me patience because I know patience, what I am learning is trust in his timing. Patience is different that timing. I think he is teaching me the punctuality of him. I also think that whoever out there is waiting for me to give them the message may not be 100% ready to hear and so this hold might not just be for me but those I will teach!

This is all fine and dandy but it doesn't change the fact i lose 6 more months from mission time.

BUT Hey that cant be all bad. I have six more months, to read the scriptures, take more mission prep classes, and go to the temple. So sure I could think of it as losing 6 months in the field but I could also look at it as 6 months in the prep stage that I didn't have before. I don't have to rush anything. This is all the Lord's timing i really do have to remember that.

 So this will be my got to reminder  for the next year as I wait for November 2014. It will be here before I know it!  It wont be easy but if i keep in mind the Lord knows what he is doing. Then I can't go wrong. I also have to remember no matter how long I have to wait, A mission will be there! The minute those papers can go in, will be a sweet reminder of my Lord's mercies and Love for me at all TIME in all things and in all places. I just have more time to really focus and really make sure I am ready to go out and do the Lord's work for him! I of course worry about what this might do to me financially and what else but the Lord obviously knows what he wants of me and if another semester of school is the designated plan I won't complain but do so with a full heart knowing this is what he wants. (But if school would let me out in 7 months I would REALLY LOVE IT!!!) BUT I am willing to accept the cards he deals me. I just have to remember to do so with a smile and carry on carry on carry on!

So President Hinckley knows what's best. I just have to move forward with a Happy Spirit. Everything will work out, maybe not the way I wanted but for the best! In someways that's better than the way I thought right???

I WILL GO ON A MISSION! 

MY CONVICTION WON'T CHANGE.

SOMEONE OUT THERE NEEDS WHAT I HAVE AND I WILL BE THE ONE TO SHARE IT WITH THEM.

THAT IS MY  PROMISE TO YOU READER.

I WILL GO AND BE IN THE SERVICE OF MY LORD. 

THE FUTURE SISTER DUGAN