Come What May

Come What May And Love it - Joseph B Worthlin

All Things Work Together- James B Martino

So these two talks made a world of difference this week as I continued on my way to paying for my mission and other drama that waltzed in unannounced. First I realized that all the negative things I was feeling were not from the Lord but from Satan trying to change my mind.

Once I realized that I was much easier to accept what was going on around me without choice. AS most of you know here I really don't like my current job but I can't find a better placed job at the moment and quitting is not an option till I can afford my mission.So I have to learn to apply the idea of come what may and love it. I have to be ok with these external bitter situations because on the inside I was full of joy.

Except for one little issue. His name was ___________. It really doesn't matter. I met him at the temple and he was incredibly funny. Not the most attractive but not bad either. He was tender and sweet. But boy was he a push over. He was being walked on pushed on and it really was hurting him. He would come chatting to me every night with drama after drama after drama and honestly by yesterday I knew he was sadly beyond hope unless he removed himself from that situation. I could definitely not help him any longer .It honestly was dragging me down!!

So last night I really prayed about it but my answer in my heart was already decided.
   it was a no

Also yesterday Satan really tempted me with a way to my dream job at WDI....but I also told them no and hoped I would be given the chance to work with them later.

So now it's just me. I am getting my physical taken care of tonight and if all goes well I should be able to submit my papers to my bishop tonight. I can't explain my excitement and my pure joy of this opportunity but I do know there are still little things ( nothing that would stop me from going on a mission)  but little things I still need to work on.


So yesterday after this very long week of work and bottled bitterness, Yesterday I came across a chapter of D&C. Section 93. It was absolutely amazing and I learned a lot!!

 First thing I learned were some of the reasons why the Lord is called what he is. Why he is the father, the son and the word. It was amazing to feel a little closer to him and know that I could be like that if I endure and try a little harder to grow a little taller. I was so engrossed in just the first 24 verses it took me all three hours of church to completely take all my notes. I am so proud of myself because it does prove that i can study and really learn from the scriptures the way the Lord intended. I drank so deeply from the fountain of living water yesterday that i am thirsty today for more so who knows what i will read but whatever I do I am pretty sure I am finally learning to devour this teaching and wonderful gospel!!!