And to quote many many many others I should be getting my call in about 2-6 weeks. Sooooo no pressure right? Right!
I am super excited to find out where the Lord officially needs me. I have wanted to go on a mission kind of forever and knowing it is now in sight is extremely nerve wracking. Seriously my fourth grade teacher and I met up about a year ago and she laughed when I told her I would be putting in my papers ( I have been trying for over a year to do so) but she laughed and remembered that in 2001 I was very set on serving a mission. Even as a fourth grader. Apparently she had no idea sisters could go and I very boldly told her so.
Through high school though the idea of a mission slipped away from my mind. Honestly it was the last thing I ever could have seen me doing. At the end of high school two of my best friend both served there missions in different parts of Washington. Both were amazing Elders and huge inspirations to me through 2010-2013. In the year 2010, I went to general conference with two very good friends. Toni and Hannah. During the morning Sunday session the choir sang " I'll go where you want me to go" I got this rush of crazy emotions and leaned in to the other girls and said "guys I want to serve a mission" Well at the time I was only in my first year of college and it didn't fit into my time line. I also wanted to finish school. I was very conflicted. I spoke with my bishop and he said he would pray about it and get back to me. He did as he said he would and his answer was a solid FINISH SCHOOL!
So I continued and I had a rough year of school after that even...and in 2012...I messed up big time. And honestly ...I figured most of my dreams for any redemption were out the window. But I graduated and moved onto another college to finish my bachelors degree. Still with the knowledge of everything all I could do was move on.
Well I got a new bishop and things began to heal. I fixed myself up and started looking at myself again as a worthy member of the church and as a daughter of God. Once my bishop and I were finally moving on from my past transgression he asked now what? This was January of 2013. I immediately said I want to serve a mission. Little did I know that my best friend from that General Conference Hannah was thinking the same thing. Well my bishop said that he had an immediate feeling that yes I could take mission prep but I wasn't allowed to leave till after school.
This is the second time a bishop had said that so I figured I should listen to the guiding.
Hannah received her call August of 2013 from Indianapolis. Yep she just her hump mark. I can't believe how wonderfully Sister Ruth is doing.
Well I waited and waited and have seen multiple calls go out and come back since my first desire to serve in 2010.
I am no officially graduated and oh my goodness the blessings! I have been able to attend the temple more, institute more and many outings with the current sisters in my area.
I truly believe something my stake president said last night. I would have been able to go then but I am truly prepared now.
I could have left before but I think back on all the things I have learned and I am so grateful for the opportunity to really grow and become a servant of Heavenly Father. I know a mission will not be easy but it is so important to me. I truly feel clean and free from the bonds Satan had me in and if I can free someone out in the world of their own bondage then I will have done what I know the Lord wanted. He let me go through those experiences not so i could hate myself but so I could love another in the same situation without any judgement but with the pure love of Christ. I only hope that I can meet this person soon and they know that my love for them is the same love Heavenly Father has for every singly person on this Earth.
I am so excited to know where I am going. Here are a few people's prediction I shall be adding to as the weeks progress.
As for my hopes. I would love to go somewhere without English but I am hopeful for a call that no matter where he sends me I will know it's where i meant to be sent and that I will be able to spread the Gospel to whomever has ears to hear it! I will be happy going anywhere....even back to Utah. haha
I shall keep you all posted!
Rach
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